Lost Beagle Meaness: A Heartfelt Love Letter

Beagle dog , female, tri color saddle back with black head and black ears, orange and white face, white chest, legs with black and orange freckles, white tip on her tail. She's about 13- 16 months old and her name is Meaness. I am absolutely devastated without her. This is a love letter to my MEANESS ; I swear , I hear you all the time. Even though it's not so. My mind just playing tricks on me and my heart just won't let go. I would give everything I have to have you here to hold. The bond we shared between us was worth more than it's weight in gold. I didn't realize that you'd completely filled my heart, You comforted me when I needed it and cried while we were apart. My life had meaning and purpose, Even when I'd had a bad day. I always knew you'd be there each night to love me in your understanding way. Unconditional Love gives us strength and courage and peace. Then is when the ugliness from the day is finally released. Just having you in my life made my failures not seem to matter. But now you're no longer here with me as my life begins to shatter. I can't seem to want to pick up the pieces that hold my sanity, The ones that I am left holding needs to be set free. Yet I hold them ever so desperately in fear of letting go, Their useless now without the others and my days go by so slow. I relive our lives together, each and every day. I wish we could've gone together, I'll see you soon I pray. Oh heavenly Father you know my heart, you know the pain I endure. Please Father have mercy and give me grace, but most of all your forgiveness I need for sure. Written June 10th, 2024 By Jan Grantham